Coconut Chutni

I haven’t written anything since last 2 weeks. I have tried to open MS word and write about a lot of things that include

• Diwali is actually Deepawali = Deep + AAwali(line of deepaks)

• People getting really conscious about their wt. and counting calories of everything from Coconut chatni (1 tea spoon of coconut chatni = 22 mins of tread mill) to a glass of milk and even curd.

Given my slim trim body (which is an understatement), I have never ever even bothered to think about the implications (long or short) of what I eat. But as soon as i got into this travelling kind of training job, my mom got really got serious about what i should and should not be eating. Now i am allowed to only eat roti made of "AAta".

Beta chahe jyada paise dene padein, yaa 10 min intazaar karna pade!! Tu roti aate kee hee khana.

So in turn I am also being made conscious of what I eat, something I really abhor.

Other thing that comes in being health conscious comes is going to gym. Ab mere jaisa 'pehalwaan' agar gym jaayega to bachega kya...

You must have some extra calories to burn out in the gym or you must have out of shape body to get into shape. I don’t posses either of them. So what I do!!!

But still I frequently go to gym.

Actually gym is not even 100mts. from my guest house building. So while talking on phone with my caring mom on serious health issues I face on my travelling job, I sometimes enter the gym and do the rituals of touching and feeling the gym equipment.

The funniest thing that lies in the gym is the tread mill. HOW can some one run on the treadmill for such long time intervals which stretch anywhere from 10 mins to 1 hr. If I want to run, would i not want to run inside the green campus or even outside (although outside has an disadvantage of having so much of air and noise pollution). But the advantage of running outside is that you see a lot of greenery esp in banglore . You have to change directions, i.e. you have to use your mind a bit, i.e. you have something to do other than running.


Hence...In case I decide to run...I would prefer not to run on that boring treadmill (un till and unless they put a TV in front of the boring black machine and i am allowed to put some really interesting channels which can actually keep me interested and running for such inconceivably long time intervals without having that inherent itch inside my mind to touch the remote.

Zindagi mein variety bahut zaroori hai. 

ak



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Haze!!!

Haze!!!

This blog is a spontaneous one. As usual my fingers wanted to type life in the first line. In the second thought, a realization came to my mind

“I become a philosopher as soon as I turn to writing
Or I have always been a philosopher”

Since I cant take that decision, I would leave this for the readers. Anyways it doesn’t make a difference to me. But the people who have to bear the agony of listening to my talks which do or do not take philosophical turns have my sympathies.

So when does someone actually become a philosopher!!!

Things happen on unexpected lines
You win and you are with the losers.
You are a loser and you are alone etc.

Basically when its difficult to apply or abide by logic we philosophize.
So why is this lecture?

Because I am not really happy right now!!!

The reason is that I always like to be with friends and a lot of them. But here I am after 4 years in IIT doing a nice job with a good food company in one overcrowded corner of country called Bangalorou (or whatever is the new name). My brother is in chennai is not well. At home my mom is not well.

But I have never been a family person anyways. So what’s the reason for being “NOT SO HAPPY?”

That is where the whole hazy scenario comes into picture!!!

So what can I see in this haze???

I see that prospects of this diwali being a memorable one are really less. Probably by next diwali I would have amassed enough wealth to organize a family gathering.

So I see hope….
Hope that life becomes better, hope that I become better next year, hope that I learn new things in the next year, hope that people around me become better, hope that I get lots and lots of money next year

Money (what else) would some one wish on diwali
ak

Power

The earliest and most relevant mention of the word power, in my case was probably in 6th class.

A didi of mine who had read some book on hand writing was trying to predict future using the same. I became an obvious and obvious and willing ‘Ginny pig’. She said, “You will have great power in your hands when you grow up”.

I was really thin and week at that time so I asked the obvious question, “But I don’t have muscles didi”. At that time she tried to explain me that, its not the muscle power that always counts, although that also does some times.

Everyone is so hungry for power all around. I realize this for the first time when I come to this corporate world. Even I am hungry for power. IIT mein the tab tak sab chalta tha yaar.
But now you expect
• Your subordinate to call you boss
• You expect him to give you respect and not give you fundaes
• You want to give your boss fundaes.
• You want to be in lime light and be seen every place where powerful people prowl, so that at least they know your name.

And if someone senior says something, it directly hurts.
“Saale kee aukat kaise hui, doesn’t he know that I am an IITian”

So power and ego go hand in hand.

But how to remain the same iitian without any ego and expectations for power is a puzzle that I am trying to solve. It feels like Amitabh in lawaris. He kept his old clothes for the last fighting scene of the movie.

I also want to preserve this identity of mine, that doesn’t mean that I want the climax in lawaris style but there is a fear that this hollow corporate life is not something that will remain always with me.

I don’t think i can explain all the complex thoughts of my mind well enough in the blog, since I am the inspired writer, not the expert writer.

But to be a part of this life style and still remain egoless is a big challenge and hopefully I can survive and come out a better person.

Tests are a part of life and we don’t have options other than taking them.
Those who pass are the winners

emotions

I dont know how many times, have i written about being non emotional or stone hearted about things in life??
But now i know how difficult it is to actually remain that way. My emotional quotient seems to be rising with time. I am happy that i actually know that such a phenomena is happening.

Human emotions are the most powerful of the things god has created. Only the emotional people are the most succesful ones. WHY?

Most of the unusual things are against common sense or logic. So in order to achieve something extraordinary or discover something new, you are required to do illogical things or in effect behave emotionally, or do as your gut feeling suggests.

Einstein has said, "Common sense is the collection of prejudices acquired by age eighteen."

so it is good to be emotional??

Well its a puzzle thats getting more and more complicated by the time?
I would wish to know the answers:)
ak

nature and hope

I hope!!!
Ummed par duniya tiki hai, hum bhi ek dhaga pakad ke latak rahe hain:)

Hope is an integral part of human philosophy(heavy words in bold)

Its really hard to imagine life without hope.

But why am i talking about hope....

Well its simple...
whatever you get.....As much you get !!! You always want more....
This tendency can give rise to continuous discontentment in mind. To deal with this problem god has given us this useful weapon of HOPE.
It allows us to live life with some kind of contentment. Other wise frustration will lead to madness.
I have never been the best in whatever i have done. So i have always had to hope for a better future. This is the power of hope that allows us to live in the darkest of the hours. Human will is also hope. If there is no hope, there is no tomorrow.

I also hope for a better tomorrow and close this hopefully readable post.
ak