Power

The earliest and most relevant mention of the word power, in my case was probably in 6th class.

A didi of mine who had read some book on hand writing was trying to predict future using the same. I became an obvious and obvious and willing ‘Ginny pig’. She said, “You will have great power in your hands when you grow up”.

I was really thin and week at that time so I asked the obvious question, “But I don’t have muscles didi”. At that time she tried to explain me that, its not the muscle power that always counts, although that also does some times.

Everyone is so hungry for power all around. I realize this for the first time when I come to this corporate world. Even I am hungry for power. IIT mein the tab tak sab chalta tha yaar.
But now you expect
• Your subordinate to call you boss
• You expect him to give you respect and not give you fundaes
• You want to give your boss fundaes.
• You want to be in lime light and be seen every place where powerful people prowl, so that at least they know your name.

And if someone senior says something, it directly hurts.
“Saale kee aukat kaise hui, doesn’t he know that I am an IITian”

So power and ego go hand in hand.

But how to remain the same iitian without any ego and expectations for power is a puzzle that I am trying to solve. It feels like Amitabh in lawaris. He kept his old clothes for the last fighting scene of the movie.

I also want to preserve this identity of mine, that doesn’t mean that I want the climax in lawaris style but there is a fear that this hollow corporate life is not something that will remain always with me.

I don’t think i can explain all the complex thoughts of my mind well enough in the blog, since I am the inspired writer, not the expert writer.

But to be a part of this life style and still remain egoless is a big challenge and hopefully I can survive and come out a better person.

Tests are a part of life and we don’t have options other than taking them.
Those who pass are the winners